Ok ya'll I started this on Valentine's Day but didn't get it finished. Valentine's Day can be hard for some and some times it brings back too many memories for me as well. So this year I didn't take the chance of crying in my heart shaped chocolates, I went to dinner with all my single lady friends and one who's husband was out of town. Together we laughed and talked about Valentine's past, what we loved, what we missed but most importantly we weren't making reservations for one.
Of course we don't want our love story playing out on the evening news but any of us who have been through a breakup knows it's about the same thing because it's playing right in front of our friends and family. Might as well be on the evening news. Some thinking how sad and some thinking "I told you so." Well they can be sad all the want but for sure no one better say to me "I told you so."
The hardest thing when love stops is definitely walking into a crowded room trying to look like you're glad to be there. Trying to put on a smile like it don't both you or listening to the radio like it ain't your song that's on. Lord have mercy I can manage the crowded room but dang if a song comes on that reminds me of a love past, just shoot me because I can become a blubbering fool in the blink of an eye, and I can name that tune in one note. Yes, that's right I said one note.
So how many of us still keep the number in our phone, just in case. Just in case one night the ex is all alone and calls us. I'm sure if my ex still has my number in his phone it's because he can recognize me if I'm calling to let him know how bad he is. Yep, I did it a few times, a few more times and then a few more times. Ya'll can stop laughing, I know it was stupid, but at the time I didn't care. It took me a long time to realize he didn't deserve a treasure like me and an even longer time to see how stupid it was. Bless my little heart, I couldn't help it, no one told me how to handle a breakup. I mean he did cross his heart that day 21 years ago and promised to make all my dreams come true.
Lesson today? Who in the world knows on this one but I think Miranda Lambert sang it best, so let's use her words for our lesson today. "Go ahead and fix your make up girl it's just a break up. Hide your crazy and start actin' like a lady. Powder your nose, paint your toes, line your lips and keep 'em closed. Cross your legs, dot your I's and never let 'em see you cry." Moving on doesn't mean that you have forgotten everything, it's just that you accept the circumstances and choose to live a happy life still. So go ahead, put on your best boots and pick your head up princess, your tiara is falling.
Love to all,
Sweet Southern Sass